Wow. Pretty much the only thing that has remained constant during my life this year has been Elmhurst! Well… Elmhurst and my therapist I suppose. Just last week, I decided to totally change where my life was at and I could not be any happier.
Let’s back track for a moment. I love change and I love opportunities. I take nearly every opportunity which almost always presents me with big changes. At the beginning of the year, I was living at home, starting a new relationship, getting involved in my major, becoming a leader on campus, and holding 7(!) part-time jobs. Then, by J-term, I took on even more opportunities and found myself moving in with my boyfriend, finding full-time work, jumping into independent research, and letting go of some of my extra commitments and responsibilities.
After four months of confused feelings, I have made the difficult decision to break up with my boyfriend and move back home. Some of my other friends are living on their own or looking for houses to live in with students for next year. Although these are both options for me, they are not financially feasible. It may not have been the best decision to move out of my house to begin with, but I learned so much through the process that I do not regret it. I wish, above all, that I could afford to live on campus and that I did not have to work, so that Elmhurst can truly be my only focus at the moment. However, just like learning about myself from moving out, I have grown immensely from trying to balance it all.
So now, I have quit my full-time job at IKEA, moved back to my parents’ house (which would be 100% okay but it is extremely messy…) landed two (unpaid) internships, and will be starting a new career at a car dealership in Roselle to gain some Sales experience. I also cut my hair, got my nails done, started working out again, and am fully diving into the upcoming opportunities and experiences ahead. In just a week my life has completely changed!
Now, I am not one to post very intimate details on the internet, but in a recent Instagram post I shared these words with the world… and yes I will even keep in the hashtags so you can better relate…
I can’t believe my life most days. I am so proud to be exactly who I am just the way I am. Why? Because I get what I want. I get what I deserve, in the best way possible. I have been gifted with a truly amazing life and an even more amazing skill set that has never failed me. I will continue to be in awe at the opportunities that are literally handed to me. Handed to me! I must say, hard work pays off. But not in the way most think. Instead, it builds character; it teaches you how to shine; it proves to others that you aspire to achieve. I cannot begin to imagine what my life would be like if I didn’t continue to strive, if I didn’t continue to be motivated, and if I didn’t believe that anything was possible. Jamie Mahoney is a crazy amazing human being and I am so glad to have gotten to know her the past few years. I don’t know why I waited until now. #Odetome #askmeaboutmylife #girlpower #cheetahgirls
I hope, that in some way, shape, or form, these words will encourage you to make a difficult choice in your life. Do you want to get to know the real you? Are you unhappy with where you are at in your life? Are you troubled by financial burdens? Don’t get caught up in the decisions. Make a decision and life with it. Thrive in it. Tackle the change head-on. I promise, you will learn so much about yourself from the process.